Question: Why did you decide to write this book?
Keith Bulfin: After I’d finished working for the agency it was an emotional journey for me and I was very depressed and wanted to work out what I could do, with my life. By writing the book, it was like therapy for me and I found an enormous amount of relief. Once I’d completed writing the book I spoke to Random House and other people about my journey, I was very emotional and my stress levels were huge, in the sense that I would become very red in the face. Now that I am talking about my journey, more and the more I talk about it the more relief I get with the more people that know about my experiences. It is an enormous relief to me to be speaking about this.
Unfortunately my family knew nothing about what I was involved in and as a consequence of that they’ve only recently found out about the book and recently found out what I was actually doing. They are now going through an emotional ride, themselves as they didn’t know. They have said they don’t want to read the book and that all of the information is news to them.
My family and friends have also said “now we understand why you were so quiet and that you didn’t talk about it”. My family will go through the same sort of period, it needs time for them to talk about it and be open about it and they will then feel the relief, that I do, right now.